Deirdre Geraghty

When it was nearly 2.00 am I decided to give up and got dressed. I thought I might nod off in the armchair but that didn’t happen even though I am quite tired now. Just about to have breakfast.

Not quite sure at all how loud my hearing aids should be. They are how they have been since my appointment last week to change the tubes and I changed the batteries yesterday. I won’t be in any rush to adjust them at the moment.

I don’t know why I didn’t think of it before but I was diagnosed with angiodysplasia of the colon quite a while ago now. That’s lesions that bleed l believe and the reason I am taking iron tablets. It causes anaemia which, of course, fits all my symptoms. I will mention to the doctor. And it took really good friends to mention anaemia for me to consider it but I am still on lots of brain meds which impair thinking which a lot of people forget.

I’m having a real problem getting up out of bed and then I don’t feel very stable or with it for a few hours just light headed. It’s just gone 11 o’clock and I’m only just up and I have things to do. Oh well! And, of course, although I had one glass of wine yesterday – nothing that would cause this!

Oh dear! Just got up and struggling. Things to do although not sure l can muster the energy. Oh dear!

I woke up early and my mind was full of memories which were disturbing. It is strange that with the antipsychotics and the antidepressants a lot of the past forty five years are missing but the things I do remember are so clear. I don’t know why it is that certain memories stay with us whilst so many chunks of my life are completely missing. Although I wonder if that’s a blessing but I don’t think so.

I don’t seem able to muster myself early in the mornings at the moment. Only just managed to have a bath and wash my hair. Much better!

I have been having dizzy spells. Yesterday was the third in the last week or so. Whether it’s to do with my new hearing aids or the hot weather and/or dehydration or lack of sleep l don’t know.

I only just made it back upstairs with my breakfast before Trevor Phillips came on. First up was Sir Neil Kinnock, former Labour Prime Minister. He had some very good ideas of where the government could get some money from. For one, an asset tax on say over £10 million so people’s homes wouldn’t be touched. Very good idea l think.

I don’t know why or how I had done it but I have been thinking that I am in the following weekend having just finished the week commencing the 7th. So I had arranged transport for completely the wrong day. Don’t know why this is. I have just sorted it out.