Deirdre Geraghty

I can’t get to sleep at night and I’m so tired that I can’t get up in the morning. It’s ridiculous!

Ever since yesterday afternoon I have been finding that some of the time my left ear has an echo and a high pitched sound when I speak. I have massaged it gently and continued with the olive oil spray which I am supposed to use regularly until I have them vacuumed before a hearing test.

I’m supposed to receive a parcel which is supposed to be delivered by a courier but they have sent a message that I don’t understand. I have sent a ‘where is my parcel?’ message just now. Will see if they get back to me.

I have just brought my breakfast upstairs having woken up again around 7.50. So now that I have things to do I am very tired, of course. I have just weighed myself and I have lost two and a half kilograms this week. Quite pleased with myself.

I find myself awake again. It’s gone 1.00 am and I’m wide awake but yawning which gives me hope. I have started watching the News Channels and there’s news that Russia has offered direct talks with Ukraine on the 15th May in Istanbul. That’s hopeful too!

Having got up really early yesterday I made up for it today (it’s nearly 10.30) but I didn’t appreciate it as I was asleep. I believe that I have a delivery coming which meant to come yesterday so I’m trying to get things done as quickly as possible. As fast as a snail…!

I wanted to have a bath and wash my hair but I have a delivery coming sometime today. Therefore I was very pleased when I woke up just before 5.00 so by 5.20 I was in the bath. Now I have had breakfast and taken all my meds and ready to face my day!

I have had my former married life on my mind so far this morning. My ex husband who recently died has been in my thoughts again and I am not sure whether it is of any help or actually harmful for my mental health to dwell. Although I have always thought that it is a good idea to go through things that trouble you. Oh well!

Running late again and S coming soon. I’m so very very tired but things to do. Just catching up on the News whilst having breakfast. And my glasses are filthy – I am surprised that I can see anything including this. Shocking!

Over the past six months I have been gradually putting back on all the weight I lost. As I eat alone I have nobody else to blame but myself. I just like my food and a glass of red wine and sometimes even a pudding. And, as I am lazy, I am very happy to order in a takeaway and none of it is low calorie. Someone who came up with a low calorie takeaway that tastes nice could make a killing!