Deirdre Geraghty

My dear friends are nearby and I am a bit of a pest. I try not to bother people but I find it very difficult to be patient. I think it is my worst failing.

What a day l have had – thank goodness for friends and close family who came to my rescue.

A problem has come up which is technical and l can’t fix it until help arrives which I think will be my good friends who are coming soon. But until then it’s going around in my head and I can’t sleep. So, this time, l have actually got dressed again and come downstairs. It’s going to be a long day!

Busy morning… it’s always busy on a Wednesday with groceries and friends that do cleaning and help and washing etc. House is now clean, washing out to dry and now a quiet afternoon. This week my garden furniture has been cleaned so we can sit out there if it ever stops raining!

Last night I was trying to remember the saying which goes something like “the only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is that good people do nothing “. So I couldn’t get to sleep until very late… and so another late morning!

I have just woken up which is very late for me. I must have needed it. It’s a bank holiday so it doesn’t matter!

I am sitting upstairs with my breakfast to start. My bathroom scales say that the weight is coming off again and I think that I am okay. The tears are not very far away which I think is an improvement on how I have been feeling although I feel very fragile. I usually really like Sundays.

For me it is a time of reflection. I have been looking over the past few years and where I am now. It leaves me feeling sad and contemplative. It’s going to be a very quiet long weekend.

It has been awhile but last night I was questioning my very existence and wondering what I am hanging around for. My world has become smaller and smaller and my ability to share it has been made impossible over the past year or two. And, of course, my counselling sessions have come to an end. But I do have very good friends… without them and my son l would be long gone.

So we now know that the General Election will be held on 4th July. We mustn’t be complacent and assume that Labour will win but we have a good chance. I can’t do much to help them apart from my stuffing leaflets into envelopes skills… if you can call it that but I am willing.