Deirdre Geraghty

I went to Silver Road Community Centre’s Craft group yesterday. It was very cold so Hilary gave me a lift. I didn’t know what to do whilst I was there so, besides making tea, l just chatted. I hope to do some adult colouring in next time I go. I will enjoy that!

I am waking late and very tired at the moment. And because my back is still hurting l am not managing to get on my exercise bike. I am in a bit of a quandary this morning. I know it’s my brother’s birthday tomorrow. We always called him Jack although his real name is John (although l never knew why) but my telephone tells me it is John M Geraghty’s birthday tomorrow. How does my mobile know his full name? – l didn’t know that myself.

I do like Sundays. I have a late breakfast in bed watching ‘Andrew Marr’. Then ‘The Big Questions’ offers religious debate and, as an atheist, it is a great comfort. And then ‘Sunday Politics’ rounds the morning off nicely. I have one of those little bottles of wine with my dinner and then I watch ‘Question Time’ repeated from late Thursday. Most enjoyable.

I went to see my GP yesterday. I was very nervous about going but it all went very well. My cholesterol is up so I have been put on a low fat diet and my blood pressure is high so I have to take yet another tablet. So, today, the parcel which I didn’t get Thursday should be delivered and my friend Zoe is coming to help me amend my grocery order. I have to cancel the butter and cheese and order low fat spread and salad etc.

Will there be anything left of the NHS by the time the Tories have finished with it? It will be down to a skeleton staff, most things will be privatised and we will probably be having to pay for it. Not that it isn’t us that funds it anyway but I mean at the point of treatment.

I was late at waking today and very tired and aware I had things to do online which I had wanted to do early. I am expecting a delivery of a new filter jug and cartridges today and didn’t want to have to open the door in the middle of what l was doing online as I am still very nervous about doing it. I wonder if I will ever feel relaxed online?

I woke up about 2.30 this morning and I was going over the reasons for the breakdown of my marriage – they were going around and around in my head and I couldn’t get back to sleep so I put the TV on. Just before 4.00 l got in the bath and washed my hair and at 5.00 l had breakfast. I suppose that is what is called an early morning!

I have a double appointment coming up with my GP for my annual mental and physical health check which people with schizophrenia now have because so many of us die suddenly from a coronary. The nearer l get to that appointment the more nervous l become because the last time I went to see her my symptoms disappeared just before I went to see her which was very embarrassing. Of course they came back later but that is beside the point.

I didn’t sleep last night – l just dozed off for around an hour about 5.30 this morning. My back really hurts so I will have to cancel my dental appointment with the hygienist this afternoon.

I have woken up in excruciating pain this morning and, unlike most Sundays, l decided to come downstairs at a reasonable time. I think I am going to have to cancel appointments booked for this week.