Deirdre Geraghty

My hand is really hurting this morning. I’m having breakfast in bed this bank holiday weekend but when my hand hurts I worry about it because I am hoping that it will settle and not need surgery. I do try not to moan about aches and pains.

Kamala Harris seems to be doing rather well and stands a very good chance of becoming the next US president. Amongst many other things I am a firm supporter of abortion. I think every baby should be a wanted baby and every woman should have a choice of whether or not she chooses to carry a foetus to term as far as medical emergencies permit.

I received a letter from the hospital confirming the most likely injury causing my wrist pain and to wear the splint and do just gentle exercise so I am trying to be patient. Not something I am known for these days!! It gave me the option of phoning for an appointment if it doesn’t settle.

Crippled by bad back pain this morning – what a nuisance. I think it’s come out in competition with my wrist!! It’s not usually this bad so early in the day.

I am really tired this morning – I slept like a log but could have slept for several hours more. Oh well!

I was in bed for a couple of hours before I gave up and came downstairs. I watched many programmes that I had recorded and just didn’t feel like I might sleep anytime soon. I have just had a bath and hope that I don’t feel too wretched today.

As a humanist I don’t believe in any superstitions but that we could live in a kind and compassionate society without superstition but if you want to believe in little green men with red spots l can’t stop you. The fact that it’s being taught in the schools is heartbreaking and the fact that your neighbours believe in little purple men with blue spots is basically the same thing. I really wish it wasn’t all passed down to future generations.

When I was on depo injections for many years I couldn’t function very well at all and most people kept their distance. Then I asked to be taken off these. My new psychiatrist wasn’t very happy but took a chance on me. I was put on 10mg of Risperidone. Quite a massive dose but still an improvement but there was so much l still couldn’t do but I did my upmost to do my best. Still people kept their distance. Now decades later I am still on 4mg of Risperidone – quite a hefty amount of strong mind altering antipsychotics and I manage extremely well despite it and people would rather l didn’t mention it. Much better not discussed. But I try my hardest to have a life worth living despite this handicap. And I am proud of it but I am not back to normal and probably never will be!

I watch most of the soaps on television and there’s some good strong storylines at the moment. I actually woke up dreaming about one this morning!

I thought that a lighter more comfortable wrist support might be better than this cumbersome one l am wearing especially in the hot weather so I changed it for a soft wrist support bandage. Unfortunately my wrist started really hurting and having changed back l was told that compression bandages make this sort of injury worse. Oh dear – never mind – worth a try!