Deirdre Geraghty

I have completely overslept and trying to wake up and have breakfast. I have a visitor coming soon!

They are asking why people in Britain aren’t having more babies. It was years ago but l was forced back to full time work when my child was two. I wanted to stay at home and have another one but no, everything was stacked against me and working all day and looking after a child and knowing others had the pleasure of spending their time with my child whilst I was at work was heartbreaking. And not being able to have another one on top of everything else, yes it was heartbreaking. It used to be the case that a human mother would be able to rear her young but such a thing is no longer possible. It’s all so hard.

I watched the new series ‘Hostage’ on Netflix yesterday. I am feeling really pleased with myself for managing to get it on my television. I have only ever managed to do such a thing once before. It seemed too difficult and scary before that!

I don’t know why they give Reform airtime on the television although it is a good idea to keep an eye on them. So I looked through the programmes l have recorded. Judge John Deed seems quite tempting! Maybe I will try that. Might be just what the doctor ordered.

I was just thinking that if it was men’s feet that were being disfigured then it would be all over the news. But so many women have disfigured feet purely from wearing ridiculous shoes which they say they wear to look sexy for the men. Perhaps it’s down to the men to tell them not to wear them!

This is the third day that my purchase of meal replacement bars has said ‘Out for delivery’ but, so far, the day ended with ‘Sorry…’. I am wondering if I should get up and dressed or have breakfast in bed. Perhaps it won’t arrive before the end of the bank holiday weekend.

I’m still eating my breakfast of Weetabix with mango yoghurt and a load of fresh raspberries. I can just about do that but everything else (including writing this) seems like really hard work. I am very weary but needed to be up for a delivery. I will just sit and read my New Statesman magazine today.

I was upsetting myself in the early hours, thinking about my former marriage, reliving parts of it and wondering if I could have done anything differently. But I didn’t have many options and I had my child and I to feed and care for and I just struggled to get through it the best I could. No, I don’t think I could have done better.

The post l was going to put on here this morning is inappropriate so I will leave my thoughts where they are today.

I watched what went on in Washington yesterday with Zelenskyy and Trump and lots of European leaders about what is happening in Ukraine including discussing arranging a meeting between both Presidents and Putin to discuss the end of the war. I believe Putin is going to want land which is Ukrainian and won’t stop at that!