Deirdre Geraghty

When I was in the psychiatric hospitals I was told that nobody knew what I was thinking, that it was impossible, that it was all a delusion. I realised that this was the truth. Angels, saints, God… nobody was listening to my thoughts. So prayer was a waste of effort. Now it all seems so clear that I don’t understand how others can believe these things but, like me, they were mostly taught when they were young and vulnerable. What a terrible waste of time. Sad really!

I have breakfast in bed on a Sunday but today, not sure how to go about it, I brought Lily’s diarrhoea medicine upstairs. The large syringe again. I managed to grab her. She isn’t very happy with me!

I am really relieved that we have a deal with the European Union but it isn’t half as good as the one we had before. Crazy. Bloody people!!

Happy Yuletide – Christmas – whatever. A strange one this year especially if you’re on your own! A happy day to you!

It sounds like we finally have a Brexit deal. Hopefully so!

I have such disturbing dreams when I am waking up in the mornings. Everything is really distressing and I am so worried. I always feel that I have to solve these problems before I wake up. Not good!

I am going to try to give my cat some medicine that I have to put in her mouth with a large syringe. Help…!!

My dearest friend Fruzsina died ten years ago today. I really miss her.

My son and his partner went into tier four at midnight so when they heard that they wouldn’t be able to visit me on Xmas Eve they jumped into their car and played masked Santa. They arrived on the doorstep just before 9.00 where we exchanged presents and then they gave me a wonderful hamper. Really exciting. Then they shot off because they had to be home before midnight.

I have pain coming from my mouth and I don’t know if it’s from having the tooth out or if we removed the wrong tooth. Ugh!!