Deirdre Geraghty

I spent hours today trying to investigate where my family and friends could sprinkle my ashes and be at the edge of the sea or riverside. And having no service – just a wake with ashes sprinkling. But now it seems that I am going to be in a large pot under a tree in my son’s garden. Perfect! They can now have a wake wherever… but I really don’t want a service where religious symbols creep back in. As most people know l don’t believe in a god or gods at all nor any establishment which perpetuates the myths.

So I have been taken to appointments three times lately. I hadn’t been out for many months because I fractured my spine but suddenly I should have taken myself to Suffolk to see my eldest sister despite my backache. There’s some people around who are spiteful and very mean minded who just like doing harm to others. It’s not excruciating pain, it is a very strong ache right across my back especially when I am moving. The more I do, the more it hurts. Apparently I am just making excuses because I don’t want to go to the funeral. She’s not dead yet – for goodness sake!

I had a very upsetting argument with family and it went on until late into the night. Then l couldn’t sleep so I have come back downstairs. I am tolerated apparently throughout my life and only because I am mentally ill. Makes me wonder if I should just keep myself to myself, a thought I have spent my life pondering, but I love them all, without exception. I should have learned my lesson by now to just not speak my mind in their company. Reminds me of a dear friend who named them the Borgias when she asked after them.

Just watching Question Time from Aberdeen which I recorded. It’s one of my favourite programmes. I do like to see what people are thinking on any different subject.

I still feel rough. I had my Covid jab on Thursday – oh well, it is what it is!

I had my Covid jab yesterday. I feel a little fragile and I have a sore arm but I will feel better by tomorrow. Spoiling myself today.

Struggling a bit today. Glad it’s bedtime not too far away.

I have a new friend K who has been helping me for the past few months since I fractured my spine. I am tired this morning and trying to make up my mind whether to have a bath and wash my hair even though K is coming. Maybe not!

A really good friend that I haven’t seen for a while is coming for lunch. Really looking forward to seeing her.

Don’t know where the day has gone. True l got up an hour later this morning but still early for a Saturday. Well, compared to the olden days. Will be heading back to bed in a little while so it’s gone fast.